BEDA 22

Road trip in 9 days, which lasts 9 days. Will be pretty amazing!


The World is a book, and those who do not travel read only a page.  ~St. Augustine

BEDA 19

I'm sorry I've had nothing interesting to post. Less than two weeks till my road trip, so excited! Unfortunately that coincides with being less then two weeks till my grandmother's memorial. I don't know, my step mom attending just feels wrong. Hopefully my extended family can see through her falseness. Two days till I have to go to work at Regal again. Not looking forward to it, but I seriously need money. Well that's it. Just wanted to through something up.

 p.s. Been watching this show again. Freaking amazing. Too bad it got canceled.

BEDA 18 .:: Kittens ::.

Found baby pictures of my cats!

 

Fifteen and sixteen

I spent the weekend at my grandpa's so I wasn't able to blog. Basically just helped him out going through my grandma's things. Donated a lot of stuff to Goodwill. Nik and I also took home a lot of necklaces, rings, etc so that we could remember her. None of it is really my style but it's nice to half. My grandpa also gave us a bunch of random stuff. Nik got a laptop, which is basically new. We got a ton of kitchen appliances. My grandpa kept offering us other stuff but we don't have the space! Oh, also got a giant stuffed lion.

Now to homework...hopefully. I have an insane amount due!

BEDA 15

Headed to Palm Bay.

Today it'll all become too real.

BEDA 14

Pretty uneventful day, and I have way to much homework to come up with a topic to talk about so traditional blog it is.

I woke up this morning and took my sister to Borders. The store was closing down so everything was super cheap. Unfortunately that meant most everything was gone. Still I managed to find some books. Total I spent $34 for 29 books and 3 poster hangers. So pretty neat.

The rest of the day was lunch with some friends, school, and then some frozen yogurt that was a fundraising event for the Children's Miracle Network. Now I'm home trying to clean so that the place will be spotless when people come to the apartment when I'm not here to watch the cats. Going to spend the weekend with my grandfather and hopefully I'll be able to help him out around the house in his time of need. Tried to get him to take a kitten, because c'mon kittens make everything better but he doesn't want anything to do with taking care of a living creature.

BEDA 13

If I post something it still counts right?

Today I got a canvas version of this:

Nightwing Sketch (not sure who did it)

Pretty amazing right?

Dies Duodecim

Short and simple.

I've been watching the North American version of  Being Human. Super awesome show! It's about three roommates: a vampire, a werewolf, and a ghost. But it's not overwhelmingly supernatural like Buffy the Vampire Slayer or Charmed. They aren't hunting demons, just trying to live their life.

In other news, just found out that my grandmother's memorial service is going to be right when I was suppose to be in Georgia on my road trip. Of course. I wonder if my dad even told my grandfather about it? I think it's not too horrible though. Could still work around it since it's right at the beginning.

Hopefully a better post will be up tomorrow.

Beda Dies Septem

So I'm going to back track. For my BEDA day 7 post I'm just going to make a swag blog. Mostly because I've done a lot of shopping this week. Which basically means a ton of books. I picked up:

DVDs
Buffy The Vampire Slayer Season 2
Buffy The Vampire Slayer Season 3
Bones Season 1
How I Met Your Mother Season 1
The IT Crowd Season 3
The Invention of Lying
500 days of Summer
Avatar the Last Airbender (part of book 1)

Books:
Knightly Academy
Wicked series (Witch, Curse, Legacy, and Spellbound)
The Fallen (The Fallen, Leviathan, Aerie and Reckoning)
Nancy Drew (36 books)
Iron Man (2 books)
Elektra: The Hand
Daniel X (graphic novel)
The New Kid (The Rising and The Sword of Armagiddon)
Chronicles of Nick (Infinity)

Miscellaneous:
2 jackets
2 new pillows
10 DVD cases
20 DVD pictures (the kind used in dvd rental places next to the dvds)

Dies Undecim .:: Saying Goodbye ::.

That's right, it's day eleven. Last day I posted was on the 6th making me four days behind. I'll try my best to catch up, but in reality I really don't care.

On April 8, 2011 my grandmother, Rita Johnson, passed away. I believe she was 85 so she had a long life. At least the last decade was spent in pain due to Parkinson's and a few other things. Within this last year she was really slipping. So I knew the time was coming close, I just couldn't comprehend how close. In my heart I know it's for the better, honestly I'd been half hoping for it because I know now she walks with God and is young and happy.

Still it's been really hard. I understand that my dad, my uncle, and my cousins are going through a tough time but not to be conceited I feel like it's been especially hard on my sister and I. I don't have a mom so she was the closest I could get. Especially since we spent nearly every summer of our lives being sent to my grandparents for various reasons (in high school it was because my stepmother didn't want us around and my dad complied...which only helps to show the lack of mother figure issue). Don't get my wrong, I love seeing them. Really, they were probably the closest family we have. I've probably seen my grandparents more in the last three years than my own dad.

I know everyone says I'm being silly but I really wish I'd made more of an effort to see my grandma more. I think part of it was that I didn't want to see her in pain. But what I wanted shouldn't have mattered. One of my last memories of being with her will be me trying to get out the door as quick as possible so we could house hunt. I wish I had been smart enough to know that you pulled out of certain death just long enough to say goodbye to us.

Grandma I miss you so much. I'll forever remember the warmth of your heart and your unwavering love. How much you worried for me and never stopped thinking about me. It makes me cringe that you're looking down on me now because I know I'm not the person that you thought I was. And even thought I know you don't care and will always love me, I'm really going to try to be a better person for you.

I'm going to end this now because I'm just becoming a blubbering mess. When my friends see me, I just try not to think about it too much. Honestly I just pretend like it's not happening so I can keep functioning. When the funeral/memorial happens I don't even know if I can take it. I'll just keep praying, and I know she'll help me through this.

BEDA Day Six

Technically it's still April 6th right? Today I went to Walt Disney World because I was able to trade some universal tickets for Disney tickets. I felt kind of bad because we had a third ticket that basically got thrown away because my sister demanded decided that we go to Disney today and everyone was busy. It actually turned out to be a blessing in disguise because my sister and I definitely had way more fun by ourselves than if we had brought a friend. However, it was pretty grueling towards the end because we had spend the previous 4 hours in the morning working (which basically means walking around nonstop for 4 hours). You'd think it wouldn't be a problem, but I am seriously unfit. I'd probably run out of breath running to the other side of the room. So I was sore, topped with spending another 9hrs in the theme park...brutal. Totally worth it though.

Yesterday I saw HOP with a group of awesome ladies Since we were all girls whenever anything cute happened you had five people saying "aww" in surround sound. The auditorium was empty except for one family, who I'm sure hated us for it. I work at the theatre so normally I'm quite as a mouse, but we were pretty damn obnoxious. The movie itself was amazing! I seriously only went because it looked mildly funny. Plus Kaley Cuoco ("Charmed", "Big Bang Theory") was in it. The film turned out to be so good. It is definitely a family movie where the jokes had a duality for both the kids and parents. There is just the right amount of corny so you're laughing but are also able to take parts of it seriously. There wasn't a single one that faltered either. Everyone was laughing when they were suppose to. James Marsden can fit into so many different kinds of characters so he was perfect to be able to give off the right vibe depending on if he was talking to EB (the bunny) or his parents. I really can't say too much without giving away the movie but it's definitely a must see.

Dies Quinque .:: Amicitia ::.

This blog comes in three parts, all about friendship.

Part One: How I Treat Friendship
The order of which people in my life rate goes like this:

• Family (namely my twin sister)
• Friends
• Me =]

Now in no way and I saying I’m some sort of saint. Actually I’m pretty damn selfish. In all honestly, we all probably are at least at some point or another. For instance, I’m not giving all my spare money to friends and if I had plans to do something I wouldn't just drop them just because somebody asked me to. That said, when it comes to the important things I would do anything for my true friends. As for the not so important, well I’ll make every effort to adjust. As my friend you have my loyalty; hell my friends are my family.

Part Two: Losing Friendship
Why am I writing all this? I’ve just been thinking of friendship as a concept. Friendship is such a valuable and delicate thing; as well as being such a volatile force. Such minor mistakes can cost the friendship to spiral out of control. Once you possess true friendship, ideally you would think one should do anything in their power to never give it up. But then again, everything in life changes eventually. At what point does a friendship change so much that it no longer exists? After that happens, is it irredeemable? I'll give you an example. In my personal experience there was this a friend of mine, let just call her X, who used to be one of my best friends (almost even like a sister) but things with south with us and sometimes I think about what it would be like if we were still friends. Silly, I know. My point is if she was to come to me saying "Let's be friends and I'm sorry" I do not know if I could. Although all is forgiven and I no longer bare a grudge (not to be confused with satisfaction in how things went), if a person cared so little about a friendship before and was so ready to stab you in the back…could you trust them? As much as I would like to believe I'm a bigger person than that, my answer would probably be no.

Part Three: Maintaining Friendship
The most important thing in a friendship I think is to always keep your friends in mind. Even if you think it's obvious, make an effort to include them. Some might not realize that you mentioning a place is an open invitation. This is one of my biggest pet peeves: even if you’re hanging out with a group of people…it’s ok to bring along your friend! Think about it, you wouldn’t know half your friends if they never brought you along to hang out with something new. That’s how you get to know people. Last, but definitely not least, always tell the truth. I wouldn't want you to sugar coat it if I’m doing something wrong. How else am I suppose to find out if my own friends won't tell me? At the same time, be nice about it. You don’t want to tell your boy crazy friend that she’s a slut. Just let her know she has a tendency to ignore others whenever she’s around a guy. =]  "It is one of the severest tests of friendship to tell your friend his faults. So to love a man that you cannot bear to see a stain upon him, and to speak painful truth through loving words, that is friendship." - Henry Ward Beecher


*Disclaimer: I am in no way an expert in friendship. In face you should probably disregard anything I say because I spend most days alone in the basement staring at the phone at the slim chance somebody may call.*

Dies Quattuor

Lazy blog. I actually had a decide blog and topic but then Firefox shut down on me and I have to start over. So this is going to be just a few of my old Facebook statuses I liked or found funny. It counts because I wrote it at some point right?

• My dad moved my sword from the living room to next to my bed so that a burglar won't stab me with it, but I can stab him! (After visiting me the first time in my apartment)
• Here's an idea: next time you want to say "12 or 1" make sure when I say "12:01?" you don't say yes! (After trying to figure out when my sister got off. I thought 12:01 was an odd time...)
• See the positive possibilities. Redirect the substantial energy of your frustration and turn it into positive, effective, unstoppable determination.
• Invest in what is. Ignore the what ifs and learn from what has happened. You will be stronger for it.
• The power of the internet never ceases to amaze me; the power to bring unity to few caring souls from every walk of life. Suddenly, the world doesn't seem so big anymore and even the actions of one lone person does help. Every bit matters.
• Assumption is the most ignorant thing mankind has created.‎ 

A few quotes:

• "No act of kindness, no matter how small, is ever wasted."
• "Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened."
• "Nothing is given to man on earth - struggle is built into the nature of life, and conflict is possible - the hero is the man who lets no obstacle prevent him from pursuing the values he has chosen."

Dies Tres

So for day three of BEDA I'd like to focus on morality. I find is so interesting that life is full of contradictions and shades of black and white. We'd like to believe that the world is black and white, right and wrong, good and evil...but when is the line ever drawn so clearly?

I work at a movie theater so one of the things I deal with constantly is people sneaking in. Of course when it's related to me directly, it feels so personal and I feel so smug when the cops give them the "this is stealing you could go to jail" speech. But just last weekend I got into Megacon without paying. Isn't it the same thing? Why is it alright for me to do this, but not allow the other? The truth is, it isn't right. I didn't have to lie and nobody really asked me to prove that I belonged there, but I knew that many around me spent money I didn't. Yet, I feel no guilt. At the same time, I would never slip some money from my drawer at work or at this point in my life pocket an item at a shop I didn't pay for.

I'll give you another example, say I worked at Universal. I'd sell those tickets in a heartbeat. But I work at a movie theater and I get free tickets. I don't sell those, or I don't sell the free movie posters I get because I feel like it would be shady. What's the difference? At what point is it unacceptable.

Shades of gray. The human mind is a funny thing. Everything consists of double standards.

Dies Duos

Today I woke up, watched some Rugrats All Grown Up, am about to head into work and then work some more. Super interesting right? So I'm just going to recap the past weekend so this is going to be a long one.

I went to MegaCon for the first time in my life. I'm not really huge into conventions because it's just so much money that I don't have to go somewhere where I'll spend even more money in the dealers room. Especially, since most of the conventions near me are more anime geared. Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with anime or those who watch it but I just never really got into it besides the ones that would come on when I got home from school on cartoon network (Dragonball Z ftw!). I'm definitely a nerd but I'm more of a television/film/comicbook superhero nerd. Even comic books I don't really read unless it's Batman but I have seen every TV show, cartoon, or film version of anything superhero DC or Marvel. So I really want to go to Comic Con or DragonCon.

Anyways, my sister, two other friends and I decided to go to MegaCon but not buy entrance. Basically, sneak in if we could because we weren't really interested in the panels anyways and we'll be spending that money in the dealers room. Furthermore, we all had free tickets to PlaylistLive a youtube convention happening 15 minutes down the road. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday we successfully went to Megacon for a couple of hours each day. We went to PlaylistLive on Saturday. I wanted to go on Sunday to see All Caps but the drive and paying for parking was too steep for just 30 minutes.  The event was an awesome concept but I don't know if it was very well carried out. Basically you either had to be a huge YouTuber or a big fangirl to be able to truly enjoy it. Unfortunately I was neither. I did see Mystery Guitar Man so that was cool.

Mystery Guitar Man

 When we went to Megacon I saw a ton of Nightwings. Nightwing is my favorite superhero so I freaked out like a little kid. It was insane. If you know me, then you know it's hard for me to get visibly excited. Didn't get the greatest pictures, but there were a ton of great costumes.

Red Hood, Batgirl and Nightwing (ignore the phone in my pocket)

The highlight of the whole weekend was meeting James Marsters! He's probably best known for playing Spike in Buffy the Vampire Slayer. He was charging $45 an autograph and I definitely couldn't afford it so my sister asked the guy running the table if we were allowed to wait in line and just talk to him (since I never go to conventions I don't know the protocol on these things) and the people in front of us got out of line assuming the answer would be no. We were and went we got to him my sister told him we couldn't afford an autograph but we wanted to say hi anyways. James Marsters told us that it was a rip off anyways. You can't blame a man for trying to make money from his time, and being honest about it. The jist of the short conversation came from when I told him I was listening to him read the Dresden Files he seemed pretty relieved that somebody was mentioning something other than Buffy or Torchwood. Basically he said that acting was easy because you could feed off of everything and everyone around you, but reading a book and making it interesting...it's all you. I said that doing the female voices must be tough too, but he just laughed and said it was fun. Females are just like men. Just like Shakespeare knew: we're all human, just different pitches of voice. I thought that was pretty neat. My friend got a video of the encounter but it didn't really pick up the sound of what was going on. =[

James Marster (and my sister's back =p)

The only swag I picked up from the convention was a bunch of Japanese candy, snacks, and soda as well as some fake badges. Bought one for the Green Lantern Corps, Torchwood Institute, Serenity, Daily Planet, and a Shield Parking pass. Saw this guy in the past and I had an X-Men, Bone Jeffersonian, and Shield Agent badge to add to the collection.

See you tomorrow! I promise the rest will be shorter and more interesting. Less of a recap.

BEDA Dies Unus

So obviously it's April 2nd and not the first. For my April Fools Day joke I decided to not post on day one. Funny, yeah?  No I didn't think so either. In reality my internet went down. I had to work. Came back from work and the internet was still down. No bueno. So this is filler day one post. Day two will be more fun.